Ayaan was very sick this weekend. It all started with a cough and cold that he picked up from me earlier in the week but by Friday, it had turned into a hacking cough with a constant leaky nose. We took him to the doctor on Saturday evening and started him off on some baby cough syrup. By Sunday night, he was running a 101.6oF temperature. The fever continued to rise through Monday so we had to go to the doctor again who started him on antibiotics. The fever finally broke on Tuesday morning and by evening it was okay. The cough and cold are still there though but much better than before and improving by the hour. *knock on wood*
Monday was a really bad day though. Ayaan was really uneasy – I think his body must have been aching. He kept moaning almost throughout the day – even in his few snatches of restless sleep. It was heart breaking to hear him. The worst thing is that he didn’t have any way to tell me what was wrong or how I could make it better. I really want him to start talking soon - atleast then I can know what’s going on in that little head and body of his.
I also went through a lot of confusion about giving him the antibiotics (this is the second time we’ve had to). Of course, I only give them when I know that without them Ayaan will have to suffer unnecessary and prolonged discomfort before he gets better. Also, I am always scared that a chest infection and fever could get out of hand and result in something far more serious like pneumonia. And antibiotics are the only way to stop the illness in its tracks.
But I also know that antibiotics are a mixed bag – they cure but they also end up killing some of the good bacteria along with the harmful ones. And they can also reduce the body’s natural immunity in the long run. Both of the times, I gave him the antibiotics because I didn’t want him to keep suffering or get sicker but both of the times I was also left wondering whether I made the right decision…
Forgot to mention: Another thing I hate about the antibiotics is the part where I have to give them to Ayaan. He absolutely hates it. We have to hold him down and force it down his throat with a dropper. And then hold him down some more while he swallows it (let him up too soon and it all comes out of his mouth). He struggles and wriggles and screams through the whole thing. And even afterwards, it takes a while to calm him down. Nowadays, he sees me coming at him with the dropper and he runs in the opposite direction so now there is the added challenge of catching him first. With other medicines, I can mix them with his food but I can't do that with the antibiotics since getting the dosage right is important. I am waiting for the 5-day course to be done with!