Today, for the first time, he was really upset to see me go and cried a lot. At moments like these, my decision to come back to work really wavers a lot. But that’s all I can do – waver. Because being a stay at home mom is just not an option for me. There are many reasons:
- We just bought a house
And there is no way we can pay back the loan on just one salary
- Others’ Expectations
I am worried about all the people who will be disappointed in me if I just working. My mom (who managed to do it all), my husband (who didn't ask to be saddled with a non-working wife), my friends (most of whom work)...
- My Own Fears
Will I become boring? Will my brain stagnate? Will I get terribly bored? Will I make Ayaan spoiled and dependent? Will it be really hard to find a good job once Ayaan grows up a little?
As I said earlier, quitting my job is not an option. So all I can do is carry on hating Mondays….