As usual, I have been away for longer than planned. Life has been really chaotic and confusing.
Just at the end of the year, there was shockingly bad news. My cousin (all of 23 years old) died in a car crash in Delhi. I am still finding it hard to come to terms with the news. This is the kind of thing you read all the time in the newspapers and never ever imagine that it will touch your family. I wasn’t too close to my cousin – too many years and miles between us but I grew up with my aunt. Before her marriage, she used to live with us and had quite a substantial role in my early upbringing. More than anything else, the mother in me just cannot find a way to deal with this. Losing a child is probably one of the worst things that can happen to a person, especially a mother. I know now from experience, how becoming a mother completely changes your life and makes you above all else, first and foremost, a mother. Having to cope with that being snatched from you so suddenly and unexpectedly is beyond all imagination.
In other news, we have moved and we brought in the New Year in our very own house. Most of the packing and moving was ably handled by Jai since I had to rush to Delhi upon hearing the news about my cousin. But everything has been pretty piecemeal. We still have to put up the shelves, wipe the paint off the taps, unpack the books, put up paintings, and so on. It’s liveable but it’s not complete and everything is not in its place. I still feel like I am living in someone else’s house while they are away.
Meanwhile, someone crashed into our car one night while it was parked. So the car boot won’t close and it’s now sitting in the workshop and we have to manage with auto rickshaws and the like. And a power surge destroyed the motherboard of our TV which then had to be repaired. Moreover, one of my maids is going on leave to her village for a couple of weeks – I am keeping my fingers crossed that she comes back.
Now I know what they mean when they say, “When it rains, it pours.”